If I Could Rearrange The "Alphabets" , I Would Put U & I Together (

Thursday, February 16, 2006

1.07pm got home not long ago.
got send home due to giddyness.
hmms.
basically , nothing to blog about.
my life is still the colorless and dull one.
whatever, who cares luh.

hais. somehow , i feel that im just nothing to you.
the care i gave you is just like some rubbish.
perphaps, what you really want is just the care and love from somebody else bah.
im just an extra giving all the nonsense to you.
giving you all sorts of attitude i have.
yes , girlfriend asked me not to push you to her.
but seems like you're walking towards her by yourself instead of me pushing.
ha. im still that kid thats filled up with , dumbness , naiveness , sillyness and all the negative words you can find in the dictionary.
somtimes you really made me feel that we two really have drifted apart.
wheres the you used to tell me everything ?
wheres the eileen that you tell everything to ?
you said im not a passerby in your life.
and yes , i told you i dont wanna be the passerby in your life too.
but somehow , everything seems to turn out another way round.
yes , you said i love assuming things.
but hey , if dont care bout you , do you think i'll assume things ?
you should know im not those that only listen to explainations one time and im satisfy with it.
yes , maybe when you tried explaining and i refused to listen.
cant you just explain to me till i really accept your explainations ?
i know i cant replaced the her in your heart.
no matter which her it is , i cant be compared to that particular her.
"dont think so much lah" is what you always tell me.
how am i suppose to stop myself thinking if things keep happening ?
all those negative "surprises" had already cost me tons of tears.
i cant imagine what kinda surprises you gonna give me further on.
perhaps, you and girlfriend got together ?
you'll tell me "no link no link" yes , perhaps , there isnt any link.
everyone can see through how you treated her.
to be frank , im jealous.
i would rather be the one suffering than my girlfriend.
shes the only one im closest with.
she put in alot of effort to maintain the "friendship" between me and you.
even though the outcome didnt lasts long.
everyone around me should knows that, i can lost every single thing around me except my closest friends. and that includes my girlfriend.
if i could do anything to make them happy , i'll just do it as long as its within my limits.
perhaps , none of them cherish me.
neverless , i'll still cherish them more than how i cherish the most important thing/person to me.
no matter how tired or moodless im , all i wish to see is that brillant smile on your face and that voice of yours that melted my heart.
no matter what happened , i'll be right there for you thou im suck at consoling.
i dont ask for any love and care from you.
all i ask for is let me stay beside you to love and care for you.
and that will be enough. nothing else.

_{i wanna hold your hand for the rest of my life. but somehow its a big impossible. ):}

Written @1:07 PM

我还在原地等你用你的温柔再次牵著我的手
但你却走回你的记忆♥